dunot ever give up eaaa!! :D

long time no blogging.... :p

yes.. i'm now at balikpapan... one of biggest city at east kalimantan..
well.. many fren think that balikpapan is such a small, traditional, old city..
no no.. it is a nice city to live.. well for u who have already enjoyed the traffic jam in Jakarta will really enjoy living here...

about 3 years ago when I went here, there is only 1 big mall.. then i prayed, God, I can't live without mall.. haha... I need it badlyyy.... then guess what.. years after... some big mall were built here, and the old mall is now being renovated...
what else... oh.. i need fast internet connection... but my SMART modem can not work here since there is no SMART signal here.. but,... i think SMART will be here soon, (since I see that they look for some people to work here - jobstreet said it :p)

what else ya... oya... some years ago Air Asia was operated here, but was closed about 1.5 yrs ago... but then. they open it again.. :P huhuy...

well many small, and big things were answered... even when your prayer just like whisper in God's ear.. but He do really make it for you! *Tuhan emang lebay.. :))


Already live here for about 2 months... and i'm now looking for new job here..
well actually if it is possible.. I don't want coding anymore.. hehe...
But it seems that with my IT background it is quite difficult for me to look job here, not like in Jakarta, there are bunch IT job...
Sometime i do wanna give up... but.. then i was encouraged while i chat with my fren, he asked me how many application have u posted?
"more than Fifty may be ", I said, yes I have posted application from last year..
THen he said.. "hey, my fren post 200! then he got the job..."
Wow...!

I got the point... never give up on your tries.. coz u will never know when will you receive the blessing fr God...

New learning point God speaks to me.. :) thanks fren!

living world....

God...

how I thankful for all that i've now (well at least tonite i can say so.. since recently i am up n down :p )...

but having sometime in thinking of Your ways... well, dunno exactly when was the first time I met You and felt in love with You... but since I entered the university, those wonderful 4 years had changed me much..
Far far away from parents, made me mostly depended on You..

I see Your great ways in changing me... until now..

I want a new beginning... having maximum life.. and fullness in You..(this one I think is the answer of all things I've been searched until now)..


oh God, i'm in love w/ You just NOW!


hug,

when all are possible then we can't call it miracle...

are all these worthy?

Gee... i almost reach the edge...

this is my last 2 month working for my current company...

today, i was left, alone at the meeting room, and suddenly have a flash back to the time when i join this company at the mid of 2007...yes, at the same meeting room..
come earlier than others, turn on my PC, work until late... Gee... really miss that moment... my first team at SentraPay :) , my lunch fren, my little cell group :)

Have to admit that i do get lots things here... , friends, lots learning points, the stressful :), much more...

there are also some time that i do tired of facing this field, but i also know that i will miss it lots as well.. :)

".....Gee... i almost reach the edge......"

for He is good and He is God :)

:D today, having sunday service in JPCC with friends from my cell group...
Wake up late, taking rush bathing... got a taxy to get there.. still sleepy since last nite had another insomnia nite :D
arrived at anex building at 9.12am and yet my frens had not come... hehe... seems i got too early then... hehe...

feeling the atmosphere at there just flash-reminds me of having sunday service at city harvest ( i love it :D , miss it as well)...

today, again, reminded bout couple months ago when God let me thru a time when all things were out of my control... but, thxful for those things since, finally He took me into the life that (must) has been missed by Him, a time when finally I decided to join my current cell group...
It is just a thing that I've never thought before... but above all things, He had prepared all good things for me (and for sure, for u! )...to get back to His love...
How now i want my circled frens also "meet" Him in their life...It is just like this statement: "If you are saved, u also will have desire for others to get saved" :)

luv Him bunch...

(i like today's song) :

Sampai habis bumi berlalu
Sampai siang malam menyatu
Kan kupuja dan kusembah Engkau ya Bapaku

trust in every word of God

whatever happens in our life, is in His control, even the worst one...He is there...
yesterday service, singing thesong of True Worshipper... "Dalam JanjiMu kemenanganku"...
Really like this song... YES! and YES! in every word of God, we may put our faith... since His words is His self...

The hardest thing of my current life is to keeping my heart clean, and to think (+)... many things that often make me grumbling... but learn to accept all things happens in our life, and believe Him that all things are good (at the end) :D

Thanks God i'm alive!

i'm excited :)

Yipeee already may....
Last month , april get lots of bless from God, for me , myself, and my family,
hm... really thankGod....

and now i'm excited for this may, what is on may? dunno...
but still wanna believe in Him who never let us down :)

May I come!!!!

yes 49:8

"Beginilah firman TUHAN: "Pada waktu Aku berkenan, Aku akan menjawab engkau, dan pada hari Aku menyelamatkan, Aku akan menolong engkau; "

Bbrp waktu ini, satu ptanyaan yang muncul : kenapa Tuhan diam?

Bukan kah Dia adalah Tuhan yg membuka pintu ketika kita mengetuk?
Tuhan yang menjawab ketika kita berseru?

Dan akan menjadi waktu2 tersulit ketika kita meminta guidance dari Tuhan, dan rasanya Tuhan speak nothing...

Tapi kemaren waktu baca Yes 49:9 , aku menemukan jawaban atas ptanyaan itu:

"Pada waktu Aku BERKENAN", Tuhan bilang... that's the point...

Jadi untuk mslah kapan Tuhan kasih jawaban, its totally hak nya Tuhan...
ketika Tuhan berkenan, dan Tuhan mau melakukannya, pasti Tuhan akan jawab.

Dan satu hal di ayat 15 dibilang bahwa Tuhan tidak pernah melupakan kita.

Yup, walopun Tuhan diam, tp Tuhan TELAH mendengar semuanya, dan pasti akan ada waktunya untuk setiap kita menerima jawaban atas pertanyaan2 kita....

:)

axioo....! can't stop admire it!!!! :D

uuuuuiiiii... can't stop admire this awesome photography work!

check this out:

http://www.axioo.com/blog/2010/02/10/ferry-rufina-%E2%80%9Clove-is-red-and-red-is-elmo%E2%80%9D

luv it bunch, really2 like the colors, the moment captured, and the cheerful read from those pictures...

probably now i can only admire these art, but really2 interested in this field,
if there is any way to learn it, sure i will take that opportunity, any one? :)

** Question: How to make the picture color like the one captured in Starbuck Coffee at the link? really like the color! and what is the color concept named?

kantung anggur yang baru....

Yesterday, as usual.. went to URBAN service, and again, during the service,
He spoke to me thru the service leader, when he spoke about new thing that God will give to us. Gosh! I really really doesn't like when he speak about it! Coz my heart seems rebel to receive it.. But , to be honest, at my first attendance at URBAN service, the first thing that I remember at the time he also said about : kantung anggur yang baru ( dunno how to translate it into English :) )
And again, yesterday nite, he said about new thing that God will give us...

Hmm... Why does my heart so hard to receive it... And I am afraid of standing in different side of Him... coz I know what kind of Person I deal with.. He has power to control my life just as He wants to.

And alsoooo: yesterday the opening song is the song I heard in SIngapore:
"I'm not gonna live by what I see... I'm not gonna live by what I feel..."
God... it has been about 2.5 months ya from that moment.. Thanks God, I've passed that time... and now the even the scar is still there, but the pain is being heal. Thanks God... :)

Aiiiiyaa... the second great things has happened during this year:
First : as I mentioned before : accidently going to Malay.. hehe
Second: for some time ago I was thinking of helping my parent to renov our new house,... but at the time I just thought that probably I can only give not much money since I still have to save for another plan... But suddenly... this month the employee get yearly bonus... And thanks God , He answers me, even I just dream of doing it, but He make it possible to me! Our awesome God : "Allah ku kan mencukup kebutuhan ku, menurut kekayaan dan kemuliaanNya."

Again, I 'm proud of being Your daughter.... :)

kembali ttg rasa syukur....

last nite have a dinner w/ ko mike and loli at sky dining-pelangi...
and like alwayz.. after getting full, we were then talking seriously... wekeke...
(i really love them both! my mentors...)

sharing about life.. about our condition, then ko mike and loli suggest me not to grumbling ... but be thxful for all things that God has given us...even for the small thing... coz our prblem will seem bigger when our heart's response is negative...

Yes...i was complaining God... coz seems that He was stay in different way of me...
but.. last saturday I read daily dev and read about good father: Is there any good father that will give us stone when we ask for bread... He knows better than us...He will give the best... :)

Ya, i'll learn... to give thanks for things that has bee given to me.. even it need process... coz it is hard to do so...

semangat2....!

flat

-------------this is what i'm feel tonight-----------------------------------------

these couple of daYzz....

Finally got back to Indo yesterday..
After 3 days in KL, Malay... nice city... even i think i prefer Malay than Singapore...
coz in SIngapore there are too many people in the street, MRT... too crowded... but Jakarta does it best(crowded!)

Stay at Impiana hotel, near KLCC and Petronas.. so i can walk to the office about 10 minutes...
Well actually this is unplanned business trip.. but yes, i got there finally..
and i think it was not as bad as i thought... :)

During these 3 days... meet, talk , and observe people around me...
i found many things that interesting...
First, i found that even a "superman" can also face tiredness...
second, it is also normal that even you have already had a good job.. but then once upon a time in your life.. you may think of other opportunity whether to look for another job or doing other business...
Third, i found all that I feel is real, normal, other people do also have the same feel... coz I'm used to think that am I too much in seeing this life...?
But it is natural to have your self sometimes not being a strong person, but it is OK.... as long as... you have a will to get yourself to be a better person , thru a long process until u die..... :)

Hm... 1 great thing has already happened into my life in this 2010, what is next?
dunno for sure!... but i will expect other great things from my lovely, wonderful God!... I have many dream for this year... job, a great new family =) , my own business... grow up more in my faith and community... so many ya!
but this is OK with Him...

"Allahku kan mencukupi kebutuhanku ... menurut kekayaan dan kemuliaanNya"

expect great things, receive it!

nice day!

the year of restoration (like this! )

today's message is about restoration, the preacher says, this year is the year of restoration, expect great things will happen to our live...
Yes, amen for it!

World is not getting better, world is getting worse and worse, but for them, who lives with Him, will experience different things... what ever our past was.. all failure, all pain will be restored... be health...

during the service, suddenly i was reminded bout a verse Josh 1:8, in order to get our journey be blessed and be lucky... we have to live in His ways... :)

new hope for this year that God will give MANY great things that i've never thought before... I believe... I believe in You.... I believe ... I believe in You...

Love Him every day... the best father... best friend ever!

berSyuKuR....

dunno why... udah sekitar 1 th an ini aku ga bisa bsyukur atas semua yg Tuhan kasih...
padahal kl dipkir2 di luar sana byk org yg ga seberuntung aku, yang pgumulannya jauuuuh lebih berat...tp tetap aja.... susah bgt dr hati ni keluar ucapan syukur
yang ada malah ngellluuuuuuh terusss....

eh tiba2 kmrn ike sms in ttg belajar bsyukur, sms itu aku tau, teguran dr Tuhan , lwat seorg sahabat... karena sehari sebelumnya juga rasanya Tuhan ngomong ttg hal yang sama, untuk aku bisa belajar bsyukur....aku pikir waktu itu... pasti kl kita bisa bsyukur,hidup pasti jauh lebih ringan...

that's why akhir2 ni,kl pas inget, TUhan ingetin kembali dlm hati untuk "belajar" bsyukur... walopun masih berat, karena secara daging, pengen ngeluh terus...
ampuni aku ya Tuhan ku sayanggggggg... :)

tp sekali lagi, Tuhan adalah sosok yang begitu lembut.. sebandel apapun aku... Dia tetap seorg Bapa yg lembut, sahabat yang pengertian...yes... i do adore Him!

luv u so muachhhhh God...

pRioriTy

hmmm..... suddenly i was remembered of my last year commitment, at the end of last year, i decided to learn to put God as the first thing, the first person, the first focus in my life... since i realized that if we do so, all good things will come...
and the peace from Him will alwayz be in our heart...
yes... it seems worked for some weeks, but now...
it goes back to nature, i was busy with unnecessary things in life, which i believe, and i know i have hurt Him so... :(
God... i want to.. but... it is just so hard to put focus on You..
to put You in the first priority over all things...

i want a new, refresh, health heart... i think my current heart is already mess up...
want a new heart to love You purely... can I God???! :(