kantung anggur yang baru....

Yesterday, as usual.. went to URBAN service, and again, during the service,
He spoke to me thru the service leader, when he spoke about new thing that God will give to us. Gosh! I really really doesn't like when he speak about it! Coz my heart seems rebel to receive it.. But , to be honest, at my first attendance at URBAN service, the first thing that I remember at the time he also said about : kantung anggur yang baru ( dunno how to translate it into English :) )
And again, yesterday nite, he said about new thing that God will give us...

Hmm... Why does my heart so hard to receive it... And I am afraid of standing in different side of Him... coz I know what kind of Person I deal with.. He has power to control my life just as He wants to.

And alsoooo: yesterday the opening song is the song I heard in SIngapore:
"I'm not gonna live by what I see... I'm not gonna live by what I feel..."
God... it has been about 2.5 months ya from that moment.. Thanks God, I've passed that time... and now the even the scar is still there, but the pain is being heal. Thanks God... :)

Aiiiiyaa... the second great things has happened during this year:
First : as I mentioned before : accidently going to Malay.. hehe
Second: for some time ago I was thinking of helping my parent to renov our new house,... but at the time I just thought that probably I can only give not much money since I still have to save for another plan... But suddenly... this month the employee get yearly bonus... And thanks God , He answers me, even I just dream of doing it, but He make it possible to me! Our awesome God : "Allah ku kan mencukup kebutuhan ku, menurut kekayaan dan kemuliaanNya."

Again, I 'm proud of being Your daughter.... :)

kembali ttg rasa syukur....

last nite have a dinner w/ ko mike and loli at sky dining-pelangi...
and like alwayz.. after getting full, we were then talking seriously... wekeke...
(i really love them both! my mentors...)

sharing about life.. about our condition, then ko mike and loli suggest me not to grumbling ... but be thxful for all things that God has given us...even for the small thing... coz our prblem will seem bigger when our heart's response is negative...

Yes...i was complaining God... coz seems that He was stay in different way of me...
but.. last saturday I read daily dev and read about good father: Is there any good father that will give us stone when we ask for bread... He knows better than us...He will give the best... :)

Ya, i'll learn... to give thanks for things that has bee given to me.. even it need process... coz it is hard to do so...

semangat2....!

flat

-------------this is what i'm feel tonight-----------------------------------------

these couple of daYzz....

Finally got back to Indo yesterday..
After 3 days in KL, Malay... nice city... even i think i prefer Malay than Singapore...
coz in SIngapore there are too many people in the street, MRT... too crowded... but Jakarta does it best(crowded!)

Stay at Impiana hotel, near KLCC and Petronas.. so i can walk to the office about 10 minutes...
Well actually this is unplanned business trip.. but yes, i got there finally..
and i think it was not as bad as i thought... :)

During these 3 days... meet, talk , and observe people around me...
i found many things that interesting...
First, i found that even a "superman" can also face tiredness...
second, it is also normal that even you have already had a good job.. but then once upon a time in your life.. you may think of other opportunity whether to look for another job or doing other business...
Third, i found all that I feel is real, normal, other people do also have the same feel... coz I'm used to think that am I too much in seeing this life...?
But it is natural to have your self sometimes not being a strong person, but it is OK.... as long as... you have a will to get yourself to be a better person , thru a long process until u die..... :)

Hm... 1 great thing has already happened into my life in this 2010, what is next?
dunno for sure!... but i will expect other great things from my lovely, wonderful God!... I have many dream for this year... job, a great new family =) , my own business... grow up more in my faith and community... so many ya!
but this is OK with Him...

"Allahku kan mencukupi kebutuhanku ... menurut kekayaan dan kemuliaanNya"

expect great things, receive it!

nice day!

the year of restoration (like this! )

today's message is about restoration, the preacher says, this year is the year of restoration, expect great things will happen to our live...
Yes, amen for it!

World is not getting better, world is getting worse and worse, but for them, who lives with Him, will experience different things... what ever our past was.. all failure, all pain will be restored... be health...

during the service, suddenly i was reminded bout a verse Josh 1:8, in order to get our journey be blessed and be lucky... we have to live in His ways... :)

new hope for this year that God will give MANY great things that i've never thought before... I believe... I believe in You.... I believe ... I believe in You...

Love Him every day... the best father... best friend ever!

berSyuKuR....

dunno why... udah sekitar 1 th an ini aku ga bisa bsyukur atas semua yg Tuhan kasih...
padahal kl dipkir2 di luar sana byk org yg ga seberuntung aku, yang pgumulannya jauuuuh lebih berat...tp tetap aja.... susah bgt dr hati ni keluar ucapan syukur
yang ada malah ngellluuuuuuh terusss....

eh tiba2 kmrn ike sms in ttg belajar bsyukur, sms itu aku tau, teguran dr Tuhan , lwat seorg sahabat... karena sehari sebelumnya juga rasanya Tuhan ngomong ttg hal yang sama, untuk aku bisa belajar bsyukur....aku pikir waktu itu... pasti kl kita bisa bsyukur,hidup pasti jauh lebih ringan...

that's why akhir2 ni,kl pas inget, TUhan ingetin kembali dlm hati untuk "belajar" bsyukur... walopun masih berat, karena secara daging, pengen ngeluh terus...
ampuni aku ya Tuhan ku sayanggggggg... :)

tp sekali lagi, Tuhan adalah sosok yang begitu lembut.. sebandel apapun aku... Dia tetap seorg Bapa yg lembut, sahabat yang pengertian...yes... i do adore Him!

luv u so muachhhhh God...

pRioriTy

hmmm..... suddenly i was remembered of my last year commitment, at the end of last year, i decided to learn to put God as the first thing, the first person, the first focus in my life... since i realized that if we do so, all good things will come...
and the peace from Him will alwayz be in our heart...
yes... it seems worked for some weeks, but now...
it goes back to nature, i was busy with unnecessary things in life, which i believe, and i know i have hurt Him so... :(
God... i want to.. but... it is just so hard to put focus on You..
to put You in the first priority over all things...

i want a new, refresh, health heart... i think my current heart is already mess up...
want a new heart to love You purely... can I God???! :(