kembali ttg rasa syukur....

last nite have a dinner w/ ko mike and loli at sky dining-pelangi...
and like alwayz.. after getting full, we were then talking seriously... wekeke...
(i really love them both! my mentors...)

sharing about life.. about our condition, then ko mike and loli suggest me not to grumbling ... but be thxful for all things that God has given us...even for the small thing... coz our prblem will seem bigger when our heart's response is negative...

Yes...i was complaining God... coz seems that He was stay in different way of me...
but.. last saturday I read daily dev and read about good father: Is there any good father that will give us stone when we ask for bread... He knows better than us...He will give the best... :)

Ya, i'll learn... to give thanks for things that has bee given to me.. even it need process... coz it is hard to do so...

semangat2....!

flat

-------------this is what i'm feel tonight-----------------------------------------

these couple of daYzz....

Finally got back to Indo yesterday..
After 3 days in KL, Malay... nice city... even i think i prefer Malay than Singapore...
coz in SIngapore there are too many people in the street, MRT... too crowded... but Jakarta does it best(crowded!)

Stay at Impiana hotel, near KLCC and Petronas.. so i can walk to the office about 10 minutes...
Well actually this is unplanned business trip.. but yes, i got there finally..
and i think it was not as bad as i thought... :)

During these 3 days... meet, talk , and observe people around me...
i found many things that interesting...
First, i found that even a "superman" can also face tiredness...
second, it is also normal that even you have already had a good job.. but then once upon a time in your life.. you may think of other opportunity whether to look for another job or doing other business...
Third, i found all that I feel is real, normal, other people do also have the same feel... coz I'm used to think that am I too much in seeing this life...?
But it is natural to have your self sometimes not being a strong person, but it is OK.... as long as... you have a will to get yourself to be a better person , thru a long process until u die..... :)

Hm... 1 great thing has already happened into my life in this 2010, what is next?
dunno for sure!... but i will expect other great things from my lovely, wonderful God!... I have many dream for this year... job, a great new family =) , my own business... grow up more in my faith and community... so many ya!
but this is OK with Him...

"Allahku kan mencukupi kebutuhanku ... menurut kekayaan dan kemuliaanNya"

expect great things, receive it!

nice day!

the year of restoration (like this! )

today's message is about restoration, the preacher says, this year is the year of restoration, expect great things will happen to our live...
Yes, amen for it!

World is not getting better, world is getting worse and worse, but for them, who lives with Him, will experience different things... what ever our past was.. all failure, all pain will be restored... be health...

during the service, suddenly i was reminded bout a verse Josh 1:8, in order to get our journey be blessed and be lucky... we have to live in His ways... :)

new hope for this year that God will give MANY great things that i've never thought before... I believe... I believe in You.... I believe ... I believe in You...

Love Him every day... the best father... best friend ever!

berSyuKuR....

dunno why... udah sekitar 1 th an ini aku ga bisa bsyukur atas semua yg Tuhan kasih...
padahal kl dipkir2 di luar sana byk org yg ga seberuntung aku, yang pgumulannya jauuuuh lebih berat...tp tetap aja.... susah bgt dr hati ni keluar ucapan syukur
yang ada malah ngellluuuuuuh terusss....

eh tiba2 kmrn ike sms in ttg belajar bsyukur, sms itu aku tau, teguran dr Tuhan , lwat seorg sahabat... karena sehari sebelumnya juga rasanya Tuhan ngomong ttg hal yang sama, untuk aku bisa belajar bsyukur....aku pikir waktu itu... pasti kl kita bisa bsyukur,hidup pasti jauh lebih ringan...

that's why akhir2 ni,kl pas inget, TUhan ingetin kembali dlm hati untuk "belajar" bsyukur... walopun masih berat, karena secara daging, pengen ngeluh terus...
ampuni aku ya Tuhan ku sayanggggggg... :)

tp sekali lagi, Tuhan adalah sosok yang begitu lembut.. sebandel apapun aku... Dia tetap seorg Bapa yg lembut, sahabat yang pengertian...yes... i do adore Him!

luv u so muachhhhh God...

pRioriTy

hmmm..... suddenly i was remembered of my last year commitment, at the end of last year, i decided to learn to put God as the first thing, the first person, the first focus in my life... since i realized that if we do so, all good things will come...
and the peace from Him will alwayz be in our heart...
yes... it seems worked for some weeks, but now...
it goes back to nature, i was busy with unnecessary things in life, which i believe, and i know i have hurt Him so... :(
God... i want to.. but... it is just so hard to put focus on You..
to put You in the first priority over all things...

i want a new, refresh, health heart... i think my current heart is already mess up...
want a new heart to love You purely... can I God???! :(

evaluasi 2009 dan harapan 2010

Gee... it has already been in the edge of this year... So so so fast ya...
Kayaknya baru awal taon kemaren pusing krn di awal taon ada project yg bermasalah, dilanjutkan dengan masuk project baru yang gila2an lemburnya... di penghujung taon didera masalah "orang dewasa" :)
kayaknya terlalu sibuk ma masalah2, ampe ga punya waktu menentukan target dan mengevaluasi pencapaian di taon ini...
Taon ini taon terberat (mungkin)... dan rasanya banyak gagal sih... tp ko mike bilang enggak, karena apa... karena dengan terdesak sprti itu justru akhirnya aku menyerah kalah ma Tuhan, dan akhirnya ikut komsel, sebuah kemenangan di tengah2 segala kegagalan egh??!! :)

"Yes, problem won't kill you, it will only make u stronger and wiser...."

2010 mao ngapain??? Ga tau... cuma pengen ma Tuhan aja melewati smua...
pgn lebih bijak melihat hidup dan bsyukur atasnya ( blm bisa bsyukur ni!)

Pengen tersenyum kembali dengan cara2 nya Tuhan yang ajaib, pengen pemulihan..

Tapi kesimpulan dr taon ini sih, lwt semuanya, aku bangga punya Allah spt Yesus..

dan yg dibawa di taon 2010 cuma satu: Janji Tuhan, karena Tuhan setia pada setiap janjiNya...

Amen...